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Prologue:
Ive been mad, so damn mad the only laughs I had was while puking my guts out. Well, it sounded more like the aftermath of a great laugh, you know, when you hold your stomach, sighin for air, trying not to roll over and die. It was a helluva laugh, good times.
The last week, well, almost two weeks now Ive had mostly good days, and more importantly, some random good nights. Its amazing what 2-3 hours of solid sleep can do to a otherwise crappy state. The docs had high hopes that my brother's bonemarrow would also affect Mr B. It might have, its still early days, but I wont likely get rid of him, my bro also has it, but thankfully alot less(lets call it B Jr.). But the good ol' days(1 year +) where I had to drug myself down to even be able to roll over and *crawl* my way down to the kitchen has not returned(yet!). I knock on my wooden stairs every morning I am able to walk down with my own feets.(happy days!)
With the ability to take daily walks, play with my niece & nephew, and even make short visits to friends, it has left me pondering, when should this site RIP? When do I Press Play On Tape on my old dusty cassette with the unfamiliar title; "LIFE"? As some of you have noticed, I have taken down my µblog(fun.ohhh.no), visiting/using it brought back too many rough memories. Although I love(d) the conversations identi.ca / status.net omb brought(I tip my hat at you, you know who you are), it wasnt enough to get rid of that annoying bad taste. And in many ways, I have the same with this site, and most of the sites this stream trickle through.. But I dont see myself pulling the plug on all, even tho that thought has struck my mind.
Back to this site, I could of course change it up a bit, and make it more in line with the search for *my* life's HOWTO. Im def open for ideas, I have other projects & domains I would like to persue, I'll make a update here if I feel its worth sharing. Sticking my head out like Ive done here is not really me, atleast not who I thought I was. I have no regrets over opening up my life to you all like this, but I was very clear with myself that at some point, you will have to insert a chapter.
Epilogue:
Every decision we make, be it good or bad, is something we have to live with, and one thing I can tell you, Im not about to waste so much time on whatever comes along that dont feel right. Ive taken decisions I regret, but Ive been able to live with most of them. I have a few outstanding "Im so sorry, it haunts me weeky how poor my judgement was", but the more time passes, the harder it gets to do.I will get to it, Im soon 6 months into my new life, I will try to not add more bullet points to that list.
"Live Strong" #muchlove
